Life update

You already know that I always like to do some personal introspection. I like to do this, as a way to realize the wonderful things that happen to me day by day, and that I don't really have the time to appreciate.

Lately in my life I have had significant changes, if you have been able to notice, this month only one post has been made. I had a month full of anxiety and stress. Ideas were not coming to me in a clear way, and I didn't know what to write. Usually I always have writings saved for publication, but I didn't really feel they were worthy of it.

I will tell you that my absence, in the end, is because of absolutly great news, and that is that I have found a job.

I am adjusting to a new routine, new people in my life, and a work environment.

A lot of people talk about it, but really, like everything in life, it is only when you have the opportunity to experience it, that you are able to assimilate how different it is.

For me, in general, it has been a journey of ups and downs, I can tell you that I have met wonderful, capable and intelligent people. My team is small, but we work with others in other areas. I am learning more every day and that excites me. Seeing myself grow in one place and them being able to learn things from me, too. I've literally spent six years of my life preparing academically for this moment.

So what's up?, I'm a highly sensitive person, I feel everything a million times and then it goes away, like I feel a shock of energy, and it's like quick come, quick go. Don't be scared, I just like to write dramatically.

For me, being a sensitive person does not make me weak, it makes me stronger, in a world full of so many injustices and inequalities, at least that's how I perceive it.

And as I tell you, to assimilate, as I have arrived at this moment after years of trying, and finally have it in my hands, does not come to me more than the sense of belonging, "this work is mine, I have to make it perfect ...".

Perfection doesn't exist, and it's hard for me to flow with that, even more so when I naturally think that it is real. I always think about the future, so another factor comes into my mind. Being a woman, I have grown up with Disney stories, surrounded by extreme protectiveness, being very young there was little education I could have received about the value of a woman, and the challenges I had to face in the world just because I was one.

Breaking the glass ceiling that has been placed so much on me, and that regardless of the studies I have done and where I come from, is not an easy task. The standards I have set for myself are high. Don't take this the wrong way, I am very happy, very happy indeed, I am step by step fulfilling what I promised myself for many years, and that is what I am afraid of. Seeing how it is happening so fast as planned, it's hard not to think that you might mess it up.

Fortunately, those negative and intrusive thoughts don't stop me, and they don't let me fall. I continue in the struggle to fulfill everything that one day, four years ago I promised myself, a plan of my life that I have for me, and that I share with my family and my friends who have seen me grow all these years.

With nothing more to add, I will continue to tell you about my professional journey in which I am just getting into, and with the illusion that someday I can look back and say, I made it.